When ever you look up -

When ever you look up -

When ever you see the rain - coming down

I'm glad you'll remember this -

like a minute in a year -

a glass is upside down -

there is a sound near the window -

and you feel - something - a chill maybe ....

but now - I can feel the night -

I can

or think I can

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But - there is always that - But -

the memory of -

The feeling of -

the thought that maybe -

Wind in the grass -

and the stars at night -

A memory of -

Waiting and talking -

a dream of -

A drop in the bucket -

The thought of -

I was there once -

- once by the sea -

even at night -

and I wish that -

I went to the wish bucket - a thousand times -

- all my wishes were answered -

I could look up and feel the rain

- coming down -

- it was like that -

- the morning - was cold -

I feel it through the door -

I could feel that -

it is only a moment -

brief and then long.

The color of

the sound of

the feeling of

But -

You know I am afraid

You know what I am afraid of -

and you can tell me - that I have nothing

to be afraid of - I can be happy -

You can tell me I can feel the wind or

you can feel the wind for me -

You'll tell me that I can go home now -

and I should be happy -

and maybe you touch me then -

and I say " yes you're right - I have nothing to be afraid of "

and I think - to my self - how sorry I feel -

like there is so much I feel sorry about -

I wish I had been stronger and I wish I had been better -

all those other things

Now, I can go home - because there is no use waiting -

I turn around -

- I see you -

You smile a little -

You know I feel better -

I feel okay - I have nothing to be afraid of -

I have nothing to be sorry for -

I can store the image of your face in my mind.

I can go home.

But - and I think you know then -

the thousand moments - the thousand smiles -

this is the only one that is important -

and you know that -

I am still afraid..