RE: Life and Confidence - Sat, 13 Nov 2004 17:59:28

So this is about alone --- some state ---

searching in space for a connection -
activity, plan, an other, a way, a thing, a time, a place, a being, a feeling,
something to relate to - and finding what ????/

Well, some desire - something -
and then looking for what ???????? ---

an answer - to a question - the question is ???

what is it ??????? .........

is it really alone ???

is there some connection to a thing, a being ,
a place, a time, a reason, a sound, an action ? ,,,,,,,

yes / no

going, coming, finding, hiding, going forward, coming back
seeing clearly, being here, being there ------

all that - and an answer --- yes no maybe ----

is it alone - is it ????????????

a hard left, a hard right, a time, a moment --- succession --- being

waiting - stopping - abruptly ...........

Sharing --- sharing what - sharing what --- with whom ----

and experience and excitement and adventure and
success and triumph and exaltation and achievement
and bereavement and failure and humiliation - hurting -
and pain -----

Is it yellow ???????? strawberry orange ? -
curved and beaming .........
Dead stopped ?

And when you know - you must know -----

if you can know - you should know ----

Why ????? Why ????? so Why ????? so so Why ??????

And so so where exactly am I ?
am I here ???????????
and why exactly am I ?
and how exactly am I ?
and who exactly am I ?
what do I want ?
what is it I need ?
is it for me ? and then what is it ?
or is it just pieces - an abstraction - a pattern that does not quite fit.

Do I know ?????

So I reach out -----


reaching ...............
reaching ...............
reaching ...............
reaching ...............
reaching ...............
reaching ...............

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stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness
stillness

am I the stillness, am I the pain, am I the alonesness
am I the brief journey to the unknown ?
am I the question ?
am I the answer ?
am I ---- what ----
a touch - a desire - a thought
the truth - the lie - the absence - the becoming
the breaking -
an end ???????????????


yes, I quess so .....
are you ? .....

can I reach you ?
can I find you ?
can I know you ?
can I relate to you ?
can you be ?
or not ?????

And then why and for what ?
and for whom ?
and because ---
is it just want ?????????????

is it blood ? -
is it food ? -
is it warm ?
is it cold ?
is it alive ?
is it afraid ?
is it happy ?
is it electric ?
does it know ??????

In the waiting - in the alone - in the space -
in the sound - in the meaning - in the breathing -
in the moving - in the changing - in the awareness
in the acceptance - in the rejection - is there something
is there a thing ???

Do you know ---
can you become ?
are you ???

Am I ? -
will I be ?
is there ?

A beer -
an onion -
a glass of wine -
the tomatoes
- variable - oscillating resistors.
dinging gongs -
ringing harps -
murky water -
- a yellow taxi -
the air.
the silence
the stars.

I know ---- I laugh - I cry -
I say

" Tommorow "

okay --- tommorow --- is maybe.

And in tommorow is silence ??/
are questions ???
is alone ????
can I touch ????
can I feel ???
can I be ???
am I afraid ????
does it really hurt that much ????
is there truth ????????

Yes / no
yes / no
yes / no
yes / no
yes / no
yes / no
yes / no

I quess, I don't know

I fear --- I look --- I wait ---
I imagine --- I see -----

You know ???

so only now I say - geometry - a rose.


Your friend,

Marc

P. S.

Follow stuff.....

P. S. S.

Did I desire you ?
yes ---
Did I want to relate to you ?
yes ---
can I ????
Is it just wanting ??????

I don't know -------

is it fear ? because -

can I love you ????

I quess.

and why? ----

motion - momentum - time
beer nuts ............



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All earthly places appear through Him and unto Him return, and God singly and alone abideth in His own place which is holy above space and time, mention and utterance, sign, description, and definition, height and depth.

(Abdu'l-Baha, A Traveller's Narrative, p. 64)

note --- M>B> "wide and deep" & "deep and wide"

Now Bahá'u'lláh so acted that the hearts of this sect were drawn towards Him, while most of the inhabitants of 'Iraq were reduced to silence and speechlessness, some being amazed and others angered. After remaining there for one year He withdrew His hand from all things, abandoned relatives and connections, and, without the knowledge of His followers, quitted 'Iraq alone and solitary, without companion, supporter, associate, or comrade. For nigh upon two years He dwelt in Turkish Kurdistan, generally in a place named Sar-Galu, situated in the mountains, and far removed from human habitations.
(Abdu'l-Baha, A Traveller's Narrative, p. 38)
Live ye one with another, O people, inradiance and joy. By My life! All that are on earth shall 45 pass away, while good deeds alone shall endure; to thetruth of My words God doth Himself bear witness.Compose your differences, O My servants; then heed yethe admonition of Our Pen of Glory and follow not thearrogant and wayward.
(Baha'u'llah, The Kitab-i-Aqdas, p. 44)
In the sight of God, Bahá'u'lláh insists, justice is the "best beloved of all things".10 It enables the individual to see reality through his or her own eyes rather than those of others and endows collective decision making with the authority that alone can ensure unity of thought and action
(Baha'i International Community, 1999 Feb, Who is Writing the Future)
The mind goes wandering off far and wide alone. Incorporeal, it dwells in the cavern of the heart. Those who keep itunder control escape from Mara's bonds.
(Buddhist, Dhammapada - Sayings of the Buddha 1 (tr. J. Richards))
But if you do not find an intelligent companion, a wise and well-behaved person going the same way as yourself, then goon your way alone, like a king abandoning a conquered kingdom, or like a great elephant in the deep forest.
(Buddhist, Dhammapada - Sayings of the Buddha 1 (tr. J. Richards))
Those who restrain their mind,which travels far alone without a body, hiding in a cave,will be free from the restrictions of death.
(Buddhist, Dhammapada - Sayings of the Buddha 2 (tr. J. Richards))
Alone should he sit and rest alone.Alone should he the active walk.Alone should he himself subdue.Alone should he in forest delight.
(Buddhist, Dhammapada - Sayings of the Buddha 3 (tr. J. Richards